“Our Father which art in heaven, we Thy children are often troubled in mind, hearing within us at once the affirmations of faith and the accusations of conscience. We are sure that there is in us nothing that could attract the love of One as holy and as just as Thou art. Yet Thou hast declared Thine unchanging love for us in Christ Jesus. If nothing in us can win Thy love, nothing in the universe can prevent Thee from loving us” – A.W Tozer.
I am sure that many people find this to be the summary of their spiritual experience. And Apostle Paul’s passionate declaration being “persuaded that nothing shall be able to separate us from the Love of God in Christ” (Rom 8:37) is sometimes not as comforting to your soul as God would have it be. You might find yourself in a place where it feels like you are not meeting up with God’s divine standard – at least not in the way that you have come to personally understand it. There seems to be a continuous contradiction between whom you are and whom you hope to be. How can God love me when I don’t do everything I know I ought to be doing, and in fact do the very things I ought not to do?
Unfortunately I am not about to tell you to forget all your worries because God’s love somehow miraculously covers all weaknesses, struggles, fears, doubts, disobedience and even laziness. That would absolve us of all responsibility for living. I do want to share a few things I have learnt so far and I hope that it encourages someone to pursue God no longer on your own merit but on the merit of the faithful High Priest Jesus.
Most of us think that God is like us, but the truth is that while we are like Him (in certain ways) God is really not like us. We are unable to deal with weakness, darkness, failure and struggle, but God can and His Word can deal with them. If you make a mistake, God’s instinct is not to hate, or get back at you for hurting Him (that’s the nature of the devil), rather it is to correct you and bring you “up out of a horrible pit” (Psalm 40:2). God alone knows the souls and inward workings of men and He alone can deal with the root of our infirmities. I believe that Heaven is in tireless motion trying to reconcile man back to God. Hebrews 7:25 puts it this way, “Wherefore he is able also to save them to the UTTERMOST that come unto God by him, seeing he ever liveth to make intercession for them (breaks into tongues of praise lool).
Jesus actually, really-really loves you! One of my favorite scriptures is Isaiah 43:1 “But now, thus says the Lord, who created you, O Jacob (insert your name here), And He who formed you O Israel, (insert name again): “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called your by your name; you are mine”. This verse is personal, comforting, and deep and it has a type of romantic feel to it. I am learning that I must in humility and faith accept the reality of Godhood that it starts with Him first. The ever faithful, ever merciful, ever loving, ever tender, ever precious sovereign hand of God carries us in His arms, the way a father carries his baby. There will never be any threat to God’s eternal love for us. From life’s first cry to final breath, Jesus commands my destiny.
So what should I do now? well after accepting the above “Then shall we know, if we follow on to know the LORD” / “Let us know, Let us pursue the knowledge of the Lord” – Hosea 6:3
The grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, The love of God and the Fellowship of the Holy Spirit are free but costly! You will not record any real progress if you do not sow your time into the life of the spirit because GOD is not cheap. Ever wonder why Paul said, “If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit” Gal 5:25. That statement simply means that, first you were dead in the spirit, but God raised you up so now you live, but you live for a purpose, which is to walk, and why walk if there is no journey? We must tie our shoe laces and begin daily putting one foot in front of the other, “here a little, there a little”. The Journey is to become the Christ-like men and women whom God can look at and say “this is my son in whom I am well pleased”. There will be tough days and seasons, there will be situations that convince us that we will never make it, but walking means being committed to the pursuit of the knowledge of God, of His truth and of His ways. A wise man once said, “The pursuit of God is a ruthless thing”.
Yes we are saved, but we are still being saved, Heb 10:39, 1 Cor 1:18. So while we press on toward the mark, remember that it is God who first desired to bring you to that place and if you continue with Him, you will get there. But if you eventually come to a place where you feel like God loves you because you have done all you feel needed to be done, that is your righteousness not God’s love. The person who loves most, is the one who knows most that he was undeserving of love. Stay in the process, stay in faith, stay in God, stay in love.
“Thy love is uncaused and undeserved. Thou art Thyself the reason for the love wherewith we are loved. Help us to believe the intensity, the eternity of the love that has found us. Then love will cast out fear; and our troubled hearts will be at peace, trusting not in what we are but in what Thou hast declared Thyself to be. Amen” – A.W Tozer.